I ran the ol’ Induction Route tonight, and found it less automatic than usual to put myself into the ol’ Induction Mindset. Those of you who’ve been reading for that long know it’s probably a good thing that I’m gaining some distance from those patterns of thought. It still makes me a bit nervous, though, to realize how much easier I’m being on myself—it still sometimes feels like weakness and selfishness to think some of the very healthy things I’ve learned to think.
Such As: “Decide what pressures you.” I’ve started to consciously accept or deny pressures based not on who puts them upon me or what the task is or says about me, but solely based on whether accepting that pressure will make me more productive or not. Feeling guilty for forgetting a meeting is not productive. Feeling like a bad teacher for failing too many students is not productive. Feeling like I have some inspiring areas of improvement, however, is quite productive—as is being honest about those. Lately, I’ve found myself deliberately deciding not to let some missed deadlines or broken promises bother me—only because this isn’t college, the demands aren’t all doable, and something does have to suffer for the sake of other things.
That’s all for now. SO many other thoughts stagnating. More to come, if they ever make it out.