Drinking the Kool-Aid

Closing the Teach For America Blogging Gap
May 07 2012

1 + 2 + 3 + 4 = 10.

I’ve been on administrative leave for the past four school days. My room is clean, my dishes are done, I have a tan (read: sunburn), I’ve run all the errands I can possibly think of. I’ve biked about thirty miles. I even vacuumed my bed.

If I weren’t more interested in preserving what little anonymity I do have on this blog, I might share more details.


Suffice it to say that I’ve learned another lesson in integrity, one that I KNOW I KNEW before I marinated in this system for two years. The Lesson: to lead in a dysfunctional system, you have to empower yourself to take the reins when something’s not working.

That would be the end of the story, except it’s led to the following epiphanies:


  1. I fully believe in the power of “living in your lane”—doing what gives you an unquestionable sense of  purpose.
  2. Feeling a sense of responsibility is different from feeling a sense of purpose.
  3. Leading with integrity means keeping a meticulous alignment between what I know/believe and what I do.
  4. I have to empower myself to find that alignment on my own (instead of treating TFA as my god or relying on my blog readers to make my decisions for me).


1 + 2 + 3 + 4 = 10.

10.   Wess is not teaching a third year in her placement school. Is probably not teaching a third year at all. Is more excited and energized by this decision than she has been since August 2011.

4 Responses

  1. This entry makes me worry about you a lot. I think you’re wonderful and I hope everything is okay.

    • Wess

      Don’t worry! I’m fine. I’m resting and thinking big thoughts about where to go from here.

  2. G

    Re: Point #4. I knew you would eventually find your way. You have to do what you have to do for YOU! You’re awesome…:)

  3. With all this time you have… YOU SHOULD COME TO DUMAS, ARKANSAS!!!

    You can buy the ticket with my voucher…??

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