I’ve been on administrative leave for the past four school days. My room is clean, my dishes are done, I have a tan (read: sunburn), I’ve run all the errands I can possibly think of. I’ve biked about thirty miles. I even vacuumed my bed.
If I weren’t more interested in preserving what little anonymity I do have on this blog, I might share more details.
Suffice it to say that I’ve learned another lesson in integrity, one that I KNOW I KNEW before I marinated in this system for two years. The Lesson: to lead in a dysfunctional system, you have to empower yourself to take the reins when something’s not working.
That would be the end of the story, except it’s led to the following epiphanies:
- I fully believe in the power of “living in your lane”—doing what gives you an unquestionable sense of purpose.
- Feeling a sense of responsibility is different from feeling a sense of purpose.
- Leading with integrity means keeping a meticulous alignment between what I know/believe and what I do.
- I have to empower myself to find that alignment on my own (instead of treating TFA as my god or relying on my blog readers to make my decisions for me).
1 + 2 + 3 + 4 = 10.
10. Wess is not teaching a third year in her placement school. Is probably not teaching a third year at all. Is more excited and energized by this decision than she has been since August 2011.